Oh, sure, we romance writers all talk to ourselves and lie in bed picturing our hero and heroine together, and we all ogle pictures of Daniel Craig and go to any movie starring Gerard Butler…but this — what I’m about to say — this is true honesty. Prepare yourselves.
Yesterday, I wrote the first kiss scene between the hero and heroine and found myself…well…okay…making out with my hand.
There. I’ve said it. See, this first kiss is a little different scenario from other first kisses I’ve written. The first kiss is so important in any romance novel, and I just wanted to make sure I got it right. And I did. Eventually. After a lot of snogging with, er…me. If I try to use McIrish, things tend to break down in one way or another. You can probably imagine one way, but another might go like this.
Me: Okay, so Harper’s just had a moment, right? And everyone else is downstairs, and she knows, even though she’s been trying not to admit it, right? And then Nick comes up, and they’re just on each other. Bam. Kissing, groping, up against the wall, all that good stuff.
McIrish: Bring it.
Me: Stop smiling. Nick would not be smiling.
Him: Whatever you want.
Me: Nick’s not as tall as you.
Him: I can’t help that. Pretend.
Me: Okay, we haven’t been together in ages, remember? We’re desperate.
Him: Desperate. Got it. Kiss me.
Me: But see, it’s not just that. There’s all this baggage, right? So yes, it’s this sudden, cannot-be-denied moment, but there’s also all this past between them.
Him: Past. Check.
Me: And don’t forget, there’s the other guy. You haven’t forgotten him, have you?
Him: Uh…other guy. Right.
Me: You forgot about him, didn’t you? Come on! This is serious!
Him: I do have to go to work at some point. Now or never, honey.
Me: This isn’t working. Get out.
Him: Heavy sigh, followed by muttering.
So you see, the hand was actually pretty helpful. Oh, lordy. This cannot be healthy.
In addition to this, I find myself crying in the car these days. I love making myself cry — this is a great sign as far as I’m concerned. If my story touches me that much, I must be on the right track. The part with Colonel the noble dog in Catch of the Day — I cried so hard! The cemetery scene in The Next Best Thing? Took me a day and a half to recover. My poor daughter caught me weeping the other day and said, “Mommy! What’s wrong?” to which I replied, “No, it’s good. It’s good that I’m so sad. It’s the book, honey. It’s okay.” Who knows what emotional scarring I impart at such moments?
But…to be a good writer, to convey heartfelt emotion, I think we have to really feel those things — love, sorrow, disappointment, abandonment, chemistry. So…whatever it takes! Making out with your hand or having to pull over on the highway because you’re suddenly crying…being vaguely schizophrenic…it’s all worth it in the end.
Okay, guys! As usual, I have abandoned all dignity in the pursuit of honesty, so it’s your turn now! What embarrassing things have you done when affected by a particularly moving scene, as a writer or a reader or a watcher of movie? Did you talk to your pillow and imagine Clive Owen’s face? Say the words the heroine just spoke, only to realize you’re actually still at work? And keep it clean! I don’t want to hear how you jumped your husband…this blog is rated PG, after all!
I’ll pick an honest responder and send her a copy of whichever of my books she likes. Can’t wait to see what you say!
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